I hear silence.
I can feel the different air molecules colliding,
Like a battle between earth and moon.
I can see universes in nothing.
The different gases oozing over each other,
Fighting for attention.
I close my eyes.
Instantly attacked by different shades of white.
My subconscious leaks random letters,
Ugly black marks that I struggle to make sense of.
My eyes fly open.
Tears forming like crystal raindrops on my exhausted eyelashes.
A moan of desperation vibrates in my chest,
Then crescendos into a hiss that escapes me,
Softly.
I breathe.
Tremors invade as I realize the struggle it takes to supply my thickening blood with oxygen.
I gasp through my laughter.
My heart slowing down to a teasingly frightening pace
That I can feel pound in my fingertips.
My sandpaper throat,
Fights to release the building scream,
As explosions hit me behind my eyes.
Suicide bombers.
Splitting my brain in two.
Waves of nausea drown my consciousness.
I fall apart.
Too tired to pick up the pieces of me…
I surrender.