I watch you break,
The pieces of your soul crumbling into dust that thickens the air.
And I frantically try to put you back together,
Just as I had done many times before.
But tonight you slip from within my grasp,
As my frenzied heartbeat badgers my ribs.
I watch you melt into yourself,
Your pain a blaze raging in your soul.
Your spirit drips in waves towards the ground,
And I try so hard to collect it in my palms,
Disregarding how deeply it burns.
But yet it pours down in an endless steamy stream,
Overflowing across my fingertips,
As my silent screams trap themselves behind my lips.
I watch your body contort itself,
Forming a rigid fetal silhouette,
Killing the softness of your essence,
And extinguishing the light behind your eyes.
I lurch towards you,
My scarred arms trying to hold you close,
To keep you whole.
But your agony forces me away,
Pushing me down onto my knees,
As my skin turns frigid with rivers of icy sweat.
I hear the wails tearing out of you,
Leaving mists of blood suspended in the air,
Ripping you apart from the inside out.
I try my best to breathe in the drops of blood,
So I can breathe them back into you,
But my lungs constrict with paralyzing fear,
As my pulse crescendos into desperation.
I hear your gasps mingle with manic laughter,
As you lose the flimsy grip holding back your sanity.
I try to put my hands on yours,
To keep you grounded into what is real,
But your fragile lucidity shatters under my stiffened fingers,
As my guilt begins to mutilate me.
I watch, I hear, I feel, I taste,
The disintegration of who you are.
I clutch at air as you fade away,
When your misery finally declares victory over you.
And as you simmer into self-sanctioned oblivion,
I feel a wound begin to devour my heart.
I stare at where you used to stand,
My soul leaving me through my tears,
Following you to where it is you are gone.
The loss of you, the end of me.