Heartbreak

So this is what it feels like

When your heart breaks,

The slow painful death

With every breath, you take.

 

So this is what it feels like

When you're all alone.

When you're in a crowded room,

But everyone is gone.

 

So this is what it feels like

When you reach for light,

But you drown in the darkness

Of a cloudy night.

 

So this is what it feels like

When you feel so numb.

When you scream for her,

But she just won't come.

 

So this is what it feels like

When you reminisce,

When you wonder why and how

It ended like this.

 

So this is what it feels like

When you daydream all day,

When you ask yourself:

Will she come back today?

 

So this is what it feels like

When you hold onto

A memory that just won't go…

Away.

Forgotten lessons

Lessons taught. Lessons learned.

Life a maze; lost at every turn.

A hopeful song from a soul that yearned,

We learn to smile as our hearts burn.

We learn to wrong and then regret,

As painful memories blaze alive.

We were never taught how to forget;

Blindly we suffer as we strive.

We’re taught to caution when we trust,

Of strangers we should always be afraid!

Never were we told of the false crust

Of the loved one who painfully betrayed.

We learn to wish, we learn to pray,

Kneeling down as we wait.

We believe we will be spared dismay;

But how do we cope if it’s too late?

We’re taught to feel, we learn to love

As emotions rage with the breaths we take.

Content we soared like a flying dove,

But confusion’s the soulmate of heartbreak.

We learn to discover as we grow,

While fate throws us left and right.

Unprepared, you assume we know,

The path is a scarring endless fight.

We are told right from wrong,

Our instincts we’re taught to follow.

Hypocrites, we don’t know where we belong

In a society that condemns us with sorrow.

We’re taught to survive through the screams

Urged to laugh even as we cry

Life a series of unbearable dreams,

No one ever answered the question: “Why?”

Break me

I hate the way you break me

You involve me then forsake me

You throw me and then take me

You don't know how much it aches me

You hurt me and you smile

I scream as you laugh

Ice cold freezing eyes

They talk on your behalf

Once friendship turned nightmare

Pain-laced indefinite care

Repeated offences birth despair

Broken trust, cries out "unfair!"

I was there when no one was

Oh loneliness silently weep

I reach out you're not there

Oh I long for eternal sleep

You care when you need me

Selfishness is all you feed me

Captured, you never freed me

Situation-wise you bleed me

How can you be so indifferent

To a gentle caring soul

I'm afire with unconditional devotion

Yet greeted by a burning coal.

Dear friend

I miss the way your smile used to come from your heart

I'm standing shivering; terrified, watching you slowly fall apart

Your memories unwinding your pain doesn’t stop

You think I don't hear your lonely tear drops

But there in the shadows I stand and I wait

Praying for you, waiting, contemplating your fate

I love you so much, its torture to see

That you're slowly fading, by living misery

Please hold on, and whatever you do

Never give up; I swear I'm here for you

I wish that I could bear the hurt instead

To silence the thoughts screaming through your head

But all I can do, is hug away the fear

Watching over you, I'll always be near

To console you that you're not alone

Holding your hand, even when everyone's gone

I know it hurts I can see it in your eyes

I can see through the smiles, the laughs, the lies

I know you can't help feeling like this inside

I just hope that it helps that I'm by your side

I'm that shoulder you can cry on

My words will urge you to stay strong

I swear to eternal loving loyalty

A helping hand when you're in need of me

Please don't let the sadness consume your soul

I need you please, the friend I've always asked for…

I love you so much, so very much

I'll always be here, close enough to touch

in doubt

Many years have past

Many glorious sunsets over sparkling seas

And we’ve faced so much together,

People’s criticism

People’s scorn

People believing

Our love won’t work

We cut off their laughs

We sealed shut their mouths

We walked between them hand in hand

Cutting our way between their sea of doubt,

Reaching the shore laughing and safe.

Facing and accepting the fact that

We may drift away once or twice.

But totally believing

That without second thought

We’ll come back together,

Stronger than ever.

 

I see my reflection in your eyes

And I marvel at the happiness

Bursting out of me.

I feel like I am

A shooting star

Soaring across a rainbow

On a snowy night

Your smile shines across my fears

And lights up the dark sky of my worries

And I know I can always turn to you

When I’m in need of that shoulder to cry on.

 

I scream out loud

As someone stabs

Me in my back

Yet once again

Your soothing touch

Silences my screams and

Eases my pain

You bend down and help me

Pick up the pieces of my shattered dignity

And aid me in restoring

My self-esteem

No one else but you

 Can make me feel

Worthy of the air I breathe

And I just wanted to

Confess to you

I breathe for you

Every day

Saving sunshine

When the sun drowns into darkness

When the songs turn into screams

When by sadness I'm surrounded

When nightmares replace my dreams

When fear threatens my faith

And humiliation follows where I go

When it seems like I have no place

When the rose is killed by snow

When my heart starts to surrender

To the hurt of a lonely night

When my resolve starts to escape

When I'm not strong enough to fight

I just think of your smile

And a warm breeze flows through the cold

My soul regains its joy

As our memories closely I hold

How can there be sadness

When I can hear your resonating laugh

My heart lovingly beats

All on your behalf

Come closer my love

So my worries can melt away

I know you're here to love me

With me you'll always stay

I've never felt so grateful

I appreciate you more than anything

Because I have you with me

I'm ready for what life can bring

What I'm trying to say

Is that I really do love you so

And you'll never be forgotten

No matter where I go

I beg you to know your worth

How dear you are to me

You’re my saving sunshine

And in my heart you'll always be