I don’t think I can handle this anymore
Life a bare room
The walls closing in on me
Where can I hide but inside myself?
There's no where to go
No one to confide in
One window
So far away
The people that I think care for me
Look in and check on me once in a while
I can feel the question
Pass momentarily through their minds…
Is he going to be okay?
But as soon as they glance behind them
They forget
They forget and get involved in what's on the other side of the walls
Things I can never be a part of
I wish someone would just notice that the walls are about to crush me into a mass of broken thoughts and lost hopes.
If they just take the time, they can open the door and save me
Save me from myself.
I'm driving myself crazy
Waiting for the moment where everything will cease.
Cease for a second until my thoughts return to haunt me;
Although my physical presence will fade away and I'll be forgotten.
I know you will regret not reaching out for the handle
But by then it will be too late
And I know the guilt will consume you so fiercely.
I hate to think of you suffering that way
So I’ll try and reach out maybe you'll notice and you'll save me.
But sometimes I think you deserve to suffer
Suffer,
Suffer like I did, like I do, like I will every day
But I would not wish the same fate for someone else
Not even Satan that laughs as I slowly loose my faith
I glance at the door
Anticipating
I can feel the heat of the walls
Scorching my cheeks
Oh God
Time's running out
My eyes never leave the handle…
Will anyone ever save me?