On my knees,
Wretched, drenched in the filth of humankind.
I scream to you “Please!”
Deliver me of this, with pain I’m too entwined.
My feet sore, disfigured
From this journey I did not choose,
My soul formed and configured
That in battle inevitably I lose.
I beg of you, release me.
Allow me to feel the silence of you,
The holy hollow that will always be
What I long to disappear into.
The peace and quiet of my origin
The darkness that shines with light
A void that is void of sin,
Where a broken man can find his might.
My desire to depart is consuming me,
I ache, my Lord, with fatigue
If I remain I can never be free
From the pull of the Devil’s league.
Temptation remains my adversity
Against light it will always prevail
In my heart abundant with enormity
The knowledge that against it I’ll fail
I writhe in anguish, my Lord, in misery
I ask of you to let me perish.
These crushing breaths laced with agony
Fail to provide what I crave to nourish.
I bathe in waves of despondency
Why allow my soul such suffering?
I have turned to you, yet I fail to see,
My vision cracked, raped and faltering.
Thus, simply, I plead of you
To help me shut my tired eyes
I cannot face what I’ve turned into
Painted in veils of foreboding dyes
This battle has now overpowered me
A spear in the heart of my resolution
Decaying blood, lack of purity
Demeaned to spiritual prostitution
On my knees,
Wretched, drenched in the filth of humankind.
I whisper to you “Please!”
Redeem me of this, with pain I’m too entwined.
My hands sore, disfigured
From this story I wish not to write
My spirit formed and configured
To sorrow until it is out of sight.