I watched you run unrestrained today,
You aura shinning in shades of gold
And my heart grew heavy and faded to black.
I watched the wind lift and kiss your hair,
The strands dancing in tangling waves
And my soul grew frigid and began to crack.
I watched your lips smiling through songs,
The melodies tumbling in twinkling notes
And my blood grew thicker and fed my grief.
I watched you dance to the universe’s rhythm,
Your body gliding, waltzing in space
And my mind grew numb and I lost belief.
Suddenly, inside, I unwound,
Envy pulsating, gaining ground,
Jealousy cascading, my freedom bound,
Longing blossoming, confinement crowned,
Frustrated screams, without a sound,
Despair amassing, it’s all around.
And I began to weep,
For the days I used to sleep,
For the liberty I couldn’t keep,
For the dreams I had to sweep,
For the days my hope ran deep,
For the rights I couldn’t reap,
For when nothing seemed too steep,
For eyes that didn’t seep,
Before everything crashed into a heap.
I used to laugh,
I used to shine,
My life was once
Of my own design.
It was all right there
The world was mine,
My joy and promise
Would intertwine.
I felt the touch
Of a life divine,
But they ripped my freedom from my hands.
They took. They tricked. They confined.
My trusting spirit could not withstand.
They fought. They faked. They conquered.
Broken, I gave in to their demands.
They bullied. They bit. They captured.
My knees were weak, I couldn’t stand.
They infiltrated. They impaired. They crucified.
They disarmed me.
They dismantled me.
They damaged me.
They damned me.
They defeated me.
They deceived me.
They defined me.
They divided me.
They degraded me.
They dominated me.
They desecrated me.
Now all I can do is gaze at you
My eyes burning green with what I see.
Someone living the life I once knew,
Someone who one day I used to be.