Fragile
On the edge
Scared, scarred and bare.
Frightened
Of what's to come
Rain, pain, despair.
Faithless
Losing grip
Drought, doubt, unfair.
Fragile
On the edge
Scared, scarred and bare.
Frightened
Of what's to come
Rain, pain, despair.
Faithless
Losing grip
Drought, doubt, unfair.
In the sizzling snow,
With harsh sensuality,
The quiet winds blow
In soft brutality.
In the ice-laced heat
Like sinful morality,
The sunrays meet
With religious sexuality.
In the scalding shade,
With dreamy reality,
Angels' wings fade
With healing fatality.
In the sandy rain
With casual formality
The lost souls gain
A sober insanity
In the lucid fog,
With bashful vanity,
Amidst fragrant smog,
I scream holy profanity.
Nothing is sacred anymore
Menstruation on what was holy
Destructive game of kiss and tell
You defecated on my heart
Over and over again
Till I drowned in my sentiment of searing regret
Of time lost and exploding agony.
A simple question,
Paralyzing my head…..
How could you compromise what was once an essence of lives?
You weren't stolen from me
Like you do, you walked away,
Willingly, itching to give up on me,
While I remain grasping at transparent threads that I can barely recognize.
Fingers on your sheathed skin, grasping, exploring
A trespass on my haunted properties.
Refugee in your heart I have become,
Home once is now a devastated land.
The only standing sanctuary he is God of.
I will not bow down
I won't prostrate at his intruding feet.
Not because of pride,
The land is screaming "O watch and behold the fall of man"
I the man;
The man with an evanescing identity
Pathetic till the very core, I the man.
I would surrender to him to reach to you,
But I know as soon as my forehead touches the ground.
You will step on me, the pedestal that gets you closer to him.
And that….
That my Agony is what I cannot live with.
Oh, Oh how despondent I have become.
Oh how easy it is to betray,
In this world of sordid realities.
I hear the lullaby of welcome death brush tantalizingly against my ear
I will not fight, I will limply embrace,
I will walk away in memory of you.
You, the cannibal
I the man.
I know you're sorry,
But I can't deny,
The pain you caused…..
A comforting lie
I was soaring once:
A joyful high.
Crashing Down
With a betrayed cry.
You broke my wings.
I cannot fly!
You gaze into me
Beautifully sly
You shattered trust
And where was I?
Nearing farewell,
Ignorant goodbye.
Sworn loyalty
Till rain turns dry.
The day has come
When eternals die…
Nicotine saturates my lungs,
Lovingly filling voids that needed to be filled.
Smoke hazing my eyes,
Shielding the pain of truth.
Raspy inhalations of life light chimneys in my soul.
And whilst the breeze seduces my aching temples
Chiffon curtains separate me from my destruction.
Toes fidgeting in thin layers of dirt.
My fingertips drumming ashes away,
I wish I had the power to cleanse my mind of this contagious disease.
Glimpses from others make me question myself
Furthermore ravaging insanity in my cells.
Twenty three stories away from the ground
Twenty three stories away from the reality which one day I will crash into.
The spike that will tear my moaning heart out through my back,
Breaking every foundation a skeleton provides.
Scars on my arms,
The calling of drying wounds.
The luring of physical pain.
Pressure makes my ears bleed,
Let me be, let me breathe.
Failed oxygen masks laughing at the darkest of ironies.
Mocking with their crazed eyes,
Laughing with their annulled voices.
A Nile of tears entrapped in my chest,
Heaving, gasping.
Horrendous reflection of a lost man,
Of what now has become me.
Twenty three stories away from the truth
Twenty three stories away from the cancerous pain that will dissemble me.
Ripping through me like a tidal wave
A nuclear explosion erasing I.
Twenty three stories away from the day.
Twenty three stories closer I remain.
I died once.
Poof.
I ceased to exist.
It didn't hurt.
I didn't cry.
That's all I can remember.
I was satisfied.
Distant whispers invade what's serene,
In the sanctuary of the hollow light.
Fading moans from the dying queen,
Turn the village fool into a knight.
Goodbye, don’t cry,
I have to leave and you know why.
It’s not fair, but it’s right
You want to stop me, but don’t try.
I waited for a lifetime to taste your lips,
And when I finally found you
I stole that kiss.
Guilty desire is what I felt,
But one smile from you
And my resolve melts.
I’m not ready to be the biggest mistake of your life,
I’m not ready to see your face when you realize.
That our love was not, it wasn’t meant to survive
And that you need saving;
because I'm your forbidden craving
How can it feel so right,
Yet be so wrong?
Alone through the nights,
Sorrow's solo song.
I must remain,
By myself again.
But this time I cannot breathe,
Addicted to your whispers
I’m falling to my knees.
Hopeless prayers,
Aimless pleas.
Impossible passion
That won’t recede.
I know I cannot have you,
Fate’s painful tease.
Destiny! Destiny,
Aren’t you done playing tricks?
Thought I’d never find love,
Now I have a broken heart that I just can’t fix